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[21 Aug 2004|02:16am] |
HEY GUYS I GOT A NEW PUBLIC JOURNAL!!!
i just kinda wanted to start over... so go check out
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) myglassheartx and add me.. im gonna add all my friends on this list right now.. so go add me :)
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| i want to cry |
[19 Aug 2004|04:44pm] |
....another rant about love *sigh*
so im not suppost talk or see the guy i like because if one of his exs finds out shes gonna start fucking drama! ok wtf? I dont even know her yet one of my friends told me she was very vendictive and she would get everyone on her side.. even my friend who told me this! I mean what am i suppost to do i like him! well anyways now hes like "well i wont talk to you because i dont want to start drama" and then i was like so u just dont want to talk to me then he said that it was deeper then that but he wouldnt say :(. I seriously wanted to cry when we were talking. I would risk the fact that everyone would turn on me to keep seeing him... but blah i donno what do to... im gonna go cry again or something... fucking life sucks
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p.s yesterday was my birthday it was crap dont ask.
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[14 Aug 2004|01:32am] |
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I fucking cant stop loving you
what the hell is wrong with me?
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[13 Aug 2004|03:27pm] |
rker: and when i saw her at summer school she said i was hot
punk goez parker: so i aws all "wtf"
Onceforgottenx: psh well james... its a known fact us hapas are pretty freggin hot (not talking about me tho haha)
Onceforgottenx: lol
punk goez parker: hahahaha
punk goez parker: yes we are on the top
Onceforgottenx: i guess we are just getting to that age where people are starting to notice us! haha
punk goez parker: hahahaha
punk goez parker: i know!!!!!
punk goez parker: i swear i used to be on the bottom of like the pple checking me out stage
Onceforgottenx: Finally too... i was starting to get a little worried
Onceforgottenx: yeah me too!
punk goez parker: and now like all these chix are noticing em
punk goez parker: and same with u too
punk goez parker: like guys say ur hot all the time now
punk goez parker: i was like yeah, i noticed too
now im sad :( i didnt have a ride to hollywood and J called me saying Nick would take me but didnt want to go home afterward but id probably have to be home at 11 so i kindly declined :( that was soo cute tho! I LOVE YOU J THANKS! :)
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[10 Aug 2004|06:19pm] |
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Hey everyone! go toHere and keep posting alright? im really interested in what everyone has to say and what they are saying... ive acutally posted in there too... so dont be shy no one knows who u are anyways...
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| Glamour shots |
[08 Aug 2004|07:30pm] |
finally i got a few of them from my dad today... so here are the 2 that are the only ones i like:
( This heart is yours, let it bleed )
Yeah they turned out ok... i look REALLY asian in the last one..w00t!
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[08 Aug 2004|05:12am] |
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whittle was great. Leadership was totally different from everything else. We didnt get to do the activities that the rest of the camp did... we usually just met in the common room at 9 and from 9 till lunch we talked or did activities that had to do with building our leadership skills or helped us understand each other better, then we would go to lunch meet at like 2 and do the same till dinner and after dinner we did our own little twlight that changed from day to day. So hmmm i guess heres what we did(it will be a little long):
( oh the joys of camp )
The cabbin was kinda cool it was like 12 rooms, 6 on one said 6 on the other, i roomed with sarah and allie.. Each one had its own bathroom, it also had a kitchen and a common room.. yeah it was cool. Hmm yeah i guess ill go more into detail about ryan.. yeah so i met this guy named ryan at camp.. and he was REALLY cute.. dirty blonde curly hair with blue, blue eyes.. about my hight.. good personality.. but he said i wasnt his "type" cuz i was too "punker" for him.. and he didnt want a camp relationship cuz he tried it once before and it didnt work... oh well sucks for him cuz hes gonna be seeing a lot of me hahaha... hmm yeah im tired... its 5:45 i think i should go to sleep... yeah? hahah :)
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| i taught myself the guitar again... weeeeeee |
[29 Jul 2004|11:01pm] |
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hahaha So yeah im running on less then 10 mins sleep. Yesterday Chyenne, April, and Brian spent the night... well no one actually went to sleep... well ok no thats a lie the absolute longest time any of us slept was like 10 mins. Yeah i donno. like.. Yesterday afternoon after going shopping for camp stuff with chyenne and my mom i called J to see if he wanted to stop by, and then we also called Brian and Dani, Well J came and left before Brian and dani got here i think... yeah.. so then brian invites like.. 2 of his friends over.. thinking i was gonna hook up with one (yeah right) well yeah so they both turn out to be named jon and yeah haha i reconized one from warped when we watched underoath oh hell yeah! haha yeah well anyways no they werent cute... so yeah.. then they left and brian got mad and left, so then we went to get chyennes stuff from her house and when we got back April and her friend Jessie were waiting there for us, so we all chilled inside and then brandon came and jessie and brandon didnt leave till like 12:30... April stayed over for reasons im not to speak of.. and yeah..
Then around like 2 we got Brian and he came over and yeah... haha
so ok skip ahead to when everyone leaves... i talk to dani and shes gonna come over so then i just like for no reason at all pick up my guitar that brian was playing earlier and start messing around with it.. then i like ok i forgot the chords... so i went online got them and when dani came i was messing around with it and then she taught me the intro to April 26th 1992 by sublime. Yeah... and yeah... Haha so more people came over im tired as hell my moms drunk and bitching at me... oh how great this days been...
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[29 Jul 2004|01:06pm] |
Sunday my dad was suppost to come pick me up at like 11:30 cuz i had a noon apt to get pictures taken. Well he came half an hour early and since i didnt get barely any sleep that night i told my mom he could wait half an hour cuz he came too early well i couldnt go back to sleep so i decided that i was gonna get up. I got up got ready then went outside when we got to the mall i got my dad to buy me new plugs since i lost mine and i was wearing straws. haha so i got some brand new spankin black plugs. Then we went to glamour shots and we had to wait a while (this is at 11:30) till the make up person fernando came back cuz he went to get something to eat.. well anyways then he asked what i want and i told him that i like the whole smokey eyes thing so he says "im gonna make you look like avril levgine(cant spell it dont care to spell it)" i kinda got scared but i didnt care.. after sitting there for like 20 mins i finally got to chose what i was gonna wear and they gave me a red dress, a summer dress and this clue little black sweater that say "leave me alone" (just for funny pictures) ok so i changed 3 times.. took 2 pictures with my dad and took about like 15 alone.. so then when they were all uploaded on the computer my dad chose like 9 of them.. and guess how much they wanted us to pay for 9 delux packages TWO THOUSAND DOLLARS no joke. So after like getting it down to 1,200 we went to pay for it and tax was 300 but it still came out to 1,500 so w/e by then it was like 1 and i had my dad take me to wilson park..
Well standard was playing and i REALLY was gonna hate myself if i missed it haha so i had my dad drop me off even tho im still grounded and i got to hear like part of their last song. Just about everyone i ususally see was there... I got to hang out with them.. i saw chris(im pretty sure thats his name) from tsr. Well brandonw as making fun of my make up saying i looked like lucky lue and that i looked like barbie cuz i looked so fake... lol he said "you look good im not saying that its just, your glowing, we need to wash that off of you" haha so we went to look around for a sink... and we found one just no soap... so we went back and everyone decided to go to hermosa so i went with brandon and we were suppost to stop by dicksons house so they just drop off the equipment. well we got lost and called j and just headed to hermosa... well yeah no... they were just gonna chill at dicksons. So we went there and everyone was swimming and i ended up going in my bra and pants and underwear haha. i took off my pants tho they were drowning me haha.
But yea i had fun Sunday, i got to see everyone and i missed seeing j everyday so i finally got to see him and now im happy :) Hahaha i didnt get into too much trouble which is good. :) well i guess this is long enough hahaha :) till later :P
♥
p.s im leaving in 2 days to go to camp... oohhh yay!
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[23 Jul 2004|06:02pm] |
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i wish i could say everything was ok in my life but its not... Seriously... Ive been feeling really crappy and, fuck... i dont know im getting so pissed off at myself because i said i would stop lying to people... so from now on no more lies right?! RIGHT! hahaha this is great... i dont know tho... i mean i kept it up for a good year... and for you people that read this and dont like me:
FUCK YOU I DONT GIVE A FUCKING DAMN!
you can wine and complain all you fucking want i dont give a shit about what you think if me!!! and dont be one of those bitches that has to talk behind my fucking back! if you have problem with me fucking tell me, and dont be a fucking pussy and do it without putting your name... thats fucking gay...
On to other news..... hmm heather is suppost to come over today i miss her.... i cant wait to see her...... i havent seen her in forever... well ok since the sacred show... i think that was the last time... yeah think so... i dont know i cant rememeber tho. hmmm w.e nothing else to say.
8:46: so yeah i just got finished crying... i dont like that my head hurts... I didnt get to see heather... she just couldnt come over and shes leaving in like 3 mins to go to vegas to meet her dad and then go to fl.. thanks yeah what a friend you are.. w/e other then that J barely talks to me anymore... thanks... thanks to everyone that made my life a complete hell... i love you all.. yeah... right
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[18 Jul 2004|05:12pm] |
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I want anyone and everyone who reads this to post in here something they would LIKE to do with me SOMEDAY. Then post this in your journal to find out what I want to do with YOU.
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| Rockin party |
[18 Jul 2004|01:59pm] |
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Wow yesterday rocked...
Yeah so yesterday after coming home from seeing the therapist i went to justins party. It was cool. I forgot that he had a pool so i didnt bring my swim suit.. When i got there there was only a few people; Jen booth, joe-anna (sp?), david tijerina, nick, J, Steven perkins, cory (of course hes justins bro) and cody then later joshua buby, eric, eric, derek, and iamire(sp?), david and taylor, somedude and stevie showed up later... yeah so lol yeah everyone was swimming and like i wasnt so nick and cory started throwing balls soaked with water at me so i got soaked (it also looked like i pissed my pants) so i went home got my bathing sute came back everyone was eating so i kinda just chilled and talked to steven, then i was like hey ill go in if u go in and he was like... alright take off your pants... hahah it sounded so wrong but it was funny but yeah we went swimming then brandon showed up (yeah it takes him 3 hours to do laundry) and we kinda chilled me and steven got out and he was trying to show me how to play pool. then everyone decided to go to starbucks and we chilled then went to some mexican place and chilled for half an hour then went back to the starbucks parking lot (this was at the crossroads) and limbowed hahaha funn funn, and me and steven walked to vons and got some ice cream for everyone and everyone deicded to go to brandons/david and taylors and we chilled there for like 4 hours, but so much drama.. as some of you know Clarity lost there bassist louie and well he might wanna come back (i think it would be good for the band if he did)but brandon doesnt want to take him back...ARG STOP BEING HARD HEADED!..but anyways...i talked to taylor and david (they are really nice i never talked to them before... well besides hi and stuff) yeah i talked to taylor a little and her friend (im so horrible with names i forgot her friends name) but they are really nice and taylor is really really friendly!! .....yeah hahah me and steven kissed it was.... i didnt think.... oh anyways i got home a few mins before 2 and my mom was pissed :( so now im grounded for a few days... it sucks....but i had fun and thats all that matters right? RIGHT!
i feel good now...
hahaha i took brandon down!!! hahaha
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[16 Jul 2004|10:13pm] |
WOoooo! saw IMR and some hardcore band that had hot screamers. Haha Lovely. Saw charles who i havent seen since school ended (hahaha aww hes soo cute when he is in the pit) saw alyssa B and her sister, daalina and her group, alan *puke* it was funny cuz they played outside... IN THE SKATEPARK!(at victory park) hahaha it was so fun.. i lost my plug. i saw a few people that ive seen before... this one guy looked like alyssa baydars bro but turned out not to be... saw richie... im in pain.. i think i pulled something... well later
<3 Marissa
p.s ahh! im getting my tattttoooo!!! ill post the design later
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[16 Jul 2004|03:46pm] |
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Im suppost to go to a show with J today. I donno what im feeling right now.... ahhh im just like blah... its fucking hot and im burning up and sweating blah i donno ill post later
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[11 Jul 2004|08:32pm] |
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i dont think i know 70 something people... damn... haha
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[10 Jul 2004|03:00pm] |
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I HATE BEING GROUNDED
usually my mom doesnt keep her word when it comes to grounding me... but this time she has and it sucks horribly! i just want to go out and she says i cant. and shes stupid cuz hes like "oh marissa your so fucking lazy why dont u go out insted of sitting at that computer the whole time?!" and im like "uhh CUZ U FUCKING GROUNDED ME YA IDIOT!"
i donno hahaha im bored... no ones online... this sucks...
i wish i had a boyfriend right now
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[07 Jul 2004|11:37am] |
brandon is wierd...
that is all about that subject...
yeah hmmm.... hahaha yeah yesterday was interesting... finally got my ice cream with cody.... went to starbucks with J. came back 9:30 left with J to hang at the crossroads.... came home around 1:30 .
woke up at 8:30 today..... doctors. thats all so far...
i really have nothing else to say... im just all over the place right now
still have brandons movie
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[29 Jun 2004|06:38pm] |
"Post anything that you want, and post it anonymously.
Anything.
a story,
a secret,
a confession,
a fear,
a love,
ANYTHING.
Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post more than once, if you'd like. Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say. "
Yeah hopefully i will get a lot of responces for this one!!
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| CHRIS LOOKS LIKE A FRUIT! |
[28 Jun 2004|11:36pm] |
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wow...yeah i went to see clarity and mays end again today! hahaha yeah yeah yeah fun fun fun! lol it was funny i had told chris crandall about it earlier today and he was like "yeah ill go just to see your lip ring" and after a hour i didnt think he was gonna show... but he did....i fucking thought at first he was a fucking asian chick! omg! (Note to ryan: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA you got to be fucking kidding me! me.... fuck him?! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA) yeah but i said hi or w/e and yeah.... he brought some dude and chris from hellogoodbye. I pointed out my lip and he smiled tehe. Yeah but i left barely talked to him.. he looks like a chick... he was a lot hotter with the skater look. The other chris kinda looked... wierd with the hair :( i liked his other hair. Yeah i guess he heard about me and ryan cuz he said something about the "heartbreak" story or w/e thats ok. yeah when the other bands were playing i would sign to heather across the room and yeah i caught brandon from clarity from across the room signing to me with the "i heart you" hahaha hes so great! hes always winking at me and talking to me and making the funniest comments like he was like "alright so am i getting my hug? youve been winking at me and tapping me all night" and i was like "uh it was you winking at me dear, oh man ur all sweaty , ew i got brandons sweat on me" and he said "it wont be the first time *wink*" HAHAHA hes great! and J invited me to a little party after since we left early yesterday but i declined cuz i was with heather and alan, yeah umm.. well we left after mays end played and alan was running to his truck and tried to jump the bed of his truck and ate it it was great!!! hahaha but yeah im fucking mad at him and yeah.... BLAH so w/e. Lol hmm i guess i shall go... ttyl
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my weekend was ok i guess... besides on thursday my dad taking my cell, digital cam, car and permit it was ok i guess. He dragged me to this get together up in fresno and we stayed at his friend wes' house and hes got 2 sons named jason and kyle. Well i hate both the boys they are too fucking touchy and always hitting on me and they are like 250 lbs each! haha they were fat and it was sad. and i feel sad for them.. then there was justin and he was really nice he was bens son. Then there was a lot of drinking on the parents and kids part and yeah... sat night i met brandon who was jason and kyles cousin and he was fucking hot as hell... hotter then crandall and ryan! hahah well yea i gues my dad over heard him talking to someone saying i was really hot or pretty or something like that then yesterday i got back to see clarity and mays end play at the roxy in hollywood they were good ^_^ , ryan was there *tear* it was sad... i cried a lot. I met cody hes cool. um yeah. went to dennys with mays end and clarity.. tehe me and justin and cody were smushed in the back and justin put his arm around the back of the seat *giggles like a little school girl* haha i had fun messing around with him... and the nude girls hahahahahahahahaha! hes great :( too bad i cant have him ohh well.. "if you believe and try hard enough it will happen!" hahaha maybe... gah ive liked him since the first day of school >_< that sucks major nuts dude..... oh well...spent the night at heathers house, Alan came over for like 2 hours then left i went to bed at 6, um going to see clarity and mays end again tonight... maybe...well later
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